I'm good

DANCING IS NOT WHAT I DO, IT'S WHO I AM

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Goodie Good Friday!

Great day today!!
Went to Ikea, grabbed some church stuff and stuff for wardrobe. Sales were not fantastic. Had BK for lunch, it was ok... :P
Headed back to church for Passion, invited 5 persons but all turned me down. -_-* Back to Passion, I've watched probably for 8-10 times but this time round, it was different, not that it was more real than the rest of the times but I guess the realisation of the LOVE of God gripped me. God loves me... God loves ME, God Loves ME! God really loves me...AWESOME!!!

After Passion, we hung around a bit in church and finally made our way to our usual 'makan' place, sat there for slightly over an hour, 'fei lou-ship'. I love my cell helpers, love their company and of course my coolest hubby and my bestest friend. Just the church! =) *big smilies*
The time of prayer was the coolest and absolute highlight of the day!!! Seriously just the presence of God is the best thing EVER! God brought the whole lot of us to heaven, in our visions.

Ermmm..I suggest if you are reading this and you have a problem with moving in the Holy Spirit and God giving us dreams and visions, which by the way was what many in the old and new testament did, then u might as well not read on =)

So. God told me tons about me dancing and birthing those visions and dreams and how He wants me to cont. choreographing, honing my technique and I'm going to win in the dancers. The dancers in r.n.'s gonna be strong, tell-it-like- it-is dancers, shine the Light, cool, expressive, kinesthetically aesthetic! I speak that into being. Amen!

Then my dearest hubby told the entire group that God wants to bring us on a tour to Heaven and we all shut our eyes and BOOM! there we are, so many had similar visions!!! God is so good to us that He would never want to withold His good thoughts and plans from us! I saw my house in heaven vaguely, actually I saw my activities more...heh. Chatting and yakking, with my neighbours and angels and neighbours and more neighbours. The liberty to just yak!!!! Haaaaa!!!
The next thing was me going around Heaven with skateboards and roller-blades and what have you with fireballs as wheels! That's bizarre, cos never thought of myself as a roller-blader-kind of a person.
Then I see my heaven with roads made of purest gold, railings of finest pearls and I see there in my courtyard, a big treasure box full of jewels of many differnt kinds, they were so much that the floors' piled up with them. They are all over and I was choosing jewels for my friends, sending them away as gifts to my friends in heaven. I'm dropping it into their letterboxes. It's way cool!
The last thing i see was Jesus leading me to my/our secret garden. It's the garden that God always bring me to in my visions with Him. There's the swing, the lake/pond/pool. Beautiful, serene place. And I see myself having garden parties with the best food served ever for my guests and more yakking. Heeee...

God loves me and knows me and wants me to be me. His version of me, whole and secure in my Daddy's love.


I love You Lord, I want to know You more and more and more and such intimacy that I become a walking Jesus. I just want you. Period.

Friday, March 25, 2005

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh.......

are people entitled to only good times?
are u given a pat on the back only when u do well?
U know, say the right thing, do the right thing...
and frowned upon when u go through tough batches?
"hey, u aren't suppose to say that", "how can u feel that way?"
I'm real. Look, i'm not perfect
SO stop demanding of me!
I want to give my best, boy, God knows how much

I'm fed up.
Fed up of having to feel that I am always wrong whenever things crop up.
Am I that lousy? No, seriously. Tell me.

i want to fly away. Please l.m.a.

yet when i can't do it, i pray the grace of God carries me through

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Raise up the banner of FAITH!
Shout out the Name of JESUS!
Praise HIM, PRAISE Him... PRAISE HIM
All that is within me shall praise HIS HOLY NAME!
Shout hallelujah!
Because He is BIG!
God keep coming, because I wanna serve no man but You.
You'll be the reason I do what I do.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

i want to be me

i just want to be who i am
don't want to fit into nobody's shoes...
if i am just who i am
is that enough?
God, make me who You want me to be
And i know that'll be more than enough

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Day of Downs =( and Ups =)

Darling's birthday today! =) Yesterday nite went to celebrate, attempted something out of the usual- but did something so DUMB, ruined it for my dearest. Tsk.

Morning was horrid- hurled angry words, spotted by Pst C.J, good that she left us alone =/, just horrid. So moral of the whole incident is "Get over yourself, Von" and boy, I WILL! YES!

A crazy bunch of us went to queue for Benny Hinn at 10am! It was quite a drama really, with people jumping queue and all the whole ugly singaporean or rather Asian syndrome. -_-*. But, u see, I've to checked my own inclination towards judging and lack of love too. See, how God's church so needs His touch! God, come. MORe! and NEVER, NEVER stop. Use us LOrd, our unclean hands and lips.

Benny Hinn was great. One thing I learn is to be persistent and determined for my breakthrough, to claim God's promises. Nothing is impossible with GOD. Me and God make the majority. I'm a king, ruling with my King! Amen. Cant wait for tmr. Double portion of anointing.

Don't stop coming to me Lord. Enroll me in Your new-breed of army.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

WOw woW WOW!

SURPRISE! Thanks dearest, I like it *heh* - PINK. Looks so freshhhh..

for those of you who do not know what I'm rambling about. *humph* DId u NOT notice the new blogskin????! *tsk tsk*

All credit goes to lovely, gorgeous, bestest Char, MUAKz! =)

Love the pointe. Oh, that reminds me of my pointe shoes...my resolution. ai....

Once again, thanks dearest, so touched. =)

Monday, March 07, 2005

TEST TEST

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